so i'm sitting at home with cramps from a post-LEEP mini-surgery laser show; hoping all the stupid evil cells are gone. it hurt and it's still hurting. plus i feel all confused and wierd and mentally drained.
apparently my squeaky cells were too evil to freeze, so they had to be zapped! like han solo on a stormtropper!
anyway,
"These treatments are almost always effective in destroying pre-cancers and preventing them from developing into true cancers."
goodie gumdrops. we'll see.

anywho like ive told people, i've made peace with it and i don't care anymore. whatever happens, happens.
\
so i said i'm home, and well, i'm bored. so i've been polyvoring like a madwoman. and now i'm hungry so i guess i'll eat.

what a dull post.

Labels: leep, personal, polyvore, rant

i love my new set!

Labels: daydream, polyvore

so the little book i found in 2001 and started reading ("Dead until Dark" by Charlaine Harris) started as a series on HBO earlier this month. i remember i used to talk about them to people and no one knew what they were all about...even gricel, niece and literature guru extraordinaire, mocked me for my infatuation with this series! haha

anywho, i still haven't even seen the episodes (damn you, basic cable!)
i just hope they do some justice to the books. i already heard that they are a bit more exaggerated than they should be (especially different character development and extra added sex scenes), but its very cool to see how someone else visualized these little books.

we'll see!

*ooh- look what i did with the tv promo wallpaper and some vector brushes (although i still like the original book covers, this one's pretty hot)!

Labels: book, tv

ok so i have 3 (maybe 4) pieces to put up at this show, which i still haven't figured out the framing/hanging of those. argh. i hate that part.
we'll see.
hope this show has some other good artwork in it. juju is in it too!

Labels: art, exhibit

stupid stupid stupids. im so exhausted, mentally.
yes, its always a "rant"

there are too many variables out of place at the moment and its driving me insane.
too much negativity
too much worry
too much insecurity
too many fears
no reassurance
no plans, much less future plans
no safety net

how the hell do people make it out there?
and
why do i have to have all this nonsense around me at all times. why can't things just be a little
simpler?

Labels: personal, rant

Does love frighten you?
-the thought of losing it/someone giving up and not being able to stop it freaks the hell out of me.

Are you wearing makeup?
-just powder, im not much into the plasticine

What is something that you’re looking forward to?
-anything romantic

What is something that you have forgiven someone for lately?
-i forgot. guess that's good!

What genre of music makes you want to cut your ears off?
-reggaeton and all sorts of latin music

What are you wearing right now?
-pants, shirt- @ work

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
-i probably would say yes, although i know that i'd be dead scared once i'm up there ready to do it!

Furthest place you ever traveled?
-scotland

How have you felt today?
-so far (since its only 8:56 am) its ok, feeling kinda distraught already. like i have this burden and i dont know what it is or why its there.

Have you ever cried and not known what for?
-too often lately

Did you have any plans for today?
-work

Are you happy at the moment?
-generally probably yes, but emotionally frustrated

What were you doing at 10:00 last night?
-watching the women's tennis final

Are you a forgiving person?
-yes

Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
-prob my mom

If you could move anywhere right now, would you?
-of course, in a heartbeat.

Do you live alone?
-with the juju


Can you keep a secre​t?​
-yes, the vault is always closed

Have you ever played Twister?
-very few times

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to?
-prob two

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
-of course, its very convenient.

Are you open with your feelings to people?
-usually not, but i'd like to be more so and dunno how.

Did you get any compliments today?
-my coworker said my hair was pretty today

How has this past week been for you?
-a frustration with repairs and an emotional trainwreck.

Are you happy with your life?
-i'm always trying to make it better and get frustrated when i'm held back

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
-yes, even when it really sucks.

Where's the last place you went?
-out to eat last night

The phone rings; What do you say?
-hey

What woke you up this morning?
-the alarm set to "Mazzy Star"

Does the last person you held hands with, mean a lot to you?
-it is the juju, of course he does

Labels: quiz

In Radiohead's new video for "House of Cards", no cameras or lights were used. Instead, 3D plotting technologies collected information about the shapes and relative distances of objects. The video was created entirely with visualizations of that data.

Directed by James Frost
From the album IN RAINBOWS

AHA! i found DETAILS!
"Radiohead Music Video: House of Cards
Zoo Productions
Is it possible to shoot a music video without a camera? Radiohead did. For the first time in history a video was shot with a laser – and it was done at the G-Star Studios in West Palm Beach, Florida. Long known as one of the most technologically advanced bands in the world, Radiohead has always been on the cutting edge of new world visions. Named by Rolling Stone Magazine as one of the greatest rock bands on the planet, the English alternative rock band from Oxfordshire performed the song Deck of Cards from their seventh album In Rainbows at the G-Star Studios under closed set conditions and super secret security. The famous band, with over 23 million records sold, shared the spotlight with the world’s only high definition laser mechanism, the HDL64E developed by Velodyne in San Francisco, used here for the very first time. It is not a camera. Essentially, it is 64 lasers mounted on a revolving turret that spins at various speeds up to 900 revolutions per second. It gives a 360 degree 3-D view of the entire area out 150 meters. The data is fed into a computer where the “camera lens” or “view point” is flown around to any point of reference that the laser has marked, including direct overhead shots. A second laser scans for direct facial close-ups. The resulting visual product is unlike anything ever filmed before. The “Director of Photography” was Velodyne Field Applications Engineer, Rick Yoder, who helped create the original technology that was invented by Velodyne founder, David Hall. “This technology is stunning,” says G-Star Studios head Greg Hauptner. “Whether it takes hold like the ‘talkies’ in the Jazz Singer or will go the way of 70 mm film, one thing is certain: this new laser system will revolutionize filmmaking in one form or another.”

Labels: music, video

so im sitting at home waiting for the plumber to come back this morning to finish this mess:


our bathroom is a dark hole!

wtf. luckily the upstairs apt is empty so we can use that bathroom, but it sucks! dammit.
and
i have to stay home bored all day while this guy fixes it. and he's not here yet! i should remember when these people say one time, they really mean about an hour later.
cuban time=stupid time/completely selfish and inconsiderate time

oh boy. lemme find something useful to do to kill time...

Labels: apartment, rant

doing not so great.
had terrible dreams last night. recurring on and off most of the night on the topic i dont really want to think about much less write about at this point.
i fell asleep around 2 am, remember waking at 3, then at 430, then a quarter to 6 then again at 645 to then have to get up at 7 am.
it sucked!
plus waking up all sweaty in the middle of the night. wtf.
scratch scratch what i just wrote.
ok
so i'm researching immune system support supplements. so far have found that mushrooms are king. hm. dr.weil says so. will continue to research. need all the help i can get.

Labels: mood, personal